Homeless

It's hard to feel safe when you don't have a home.

My roommate made it very clear to me that I was no longer welcome to stay with her in our dorm, and since I was planning on moving out soon anyways, it just fueled the right fires for me to pack up and crash on couches (more like sharing those tiny dorm beds) and live night to night. I haven't had something I considered my own "bed" since...Thursday. And I haven't spent two consecutive nights in one space, because I don't want to get tied down anywhere. I stayed in a very nice suite last night with two of my marching band friends so I might stay here again if housing doesn't find me a place to live today. Or, I might go stay with my sister in Wisconsin because i have the go-ahead for a medical leave, but my parents aren't as cool with that. I would go home to Fitchburg, but things have happened to me there that I want to be far away from. My teachers tell me i'm too unstable to go to class and tell me "don't worry about it" if I even suggest going back to class.

I just feel like I don't have a safe place anymore on campus and that's a sad thing to feel.

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